Some things are just out of our control

I am sorry if I have been distant from people, the past few days, but I have just been going through a lot of emotions, and I am beginning to realize that this is going to be the norm for awhile.. I appreciate everyones' emails, facebook posts, calls and texts more than you will know even if you do not hear it directly from me.. 

I had a very bad flare up with my cancer last night and without going into too much detail about it, it resulted in me deciding that I could not wait to start my cancer treatment the three weeks it would take to do IVF and I am going to have to start chemo and radiation as soon as possible to prevent the cancer from getting any worse then it already is. I had desperately  hoped that this would not happen and  that my body would let me have the three weeks I needed to have my eggs frozen but unfortunately this is not the case. .I am meeting with my Oncologist on Friday to get everything final and set in motion so by next week  I should hopefully be starting all my treatment. As with anything in life things just are not predictable and this just happens to be another bump in the road, but my life is more important than having eggs frozen, b/c what good are frozen eggs if I not around to use them. So bring on  the chemo and radiation.

I love all you guys!!!